procrastination nation

I've been in my dorm since 3pm today and the one thing I told myself I had to do was read our English assignment on Ecotourism. My English teacher said it was going to be a difficult essay to read. To say this discouraged me would be an understatement. You see, the last essay we had to read that she warned us would be slightly difficult had me on the brink of tears while trying to understand it (granted that the previous essay had a much bigger effect on our grades, our teacher still claims this new one on Ecotourism will be twice as hard as the previous one). It's already 11:10pm and I should be sleeping now, instead I am sitting next to the packet of essays afraid to even glance at it. So what do I do to make myself feel like I am responsible, but not really do shit? You got it! Procrastinate.

So here I am blogging, telling myself the moment I finish this entry I will grab that packet and read it like there's no tomorrow. Okay, wrong use of words because I wouldn't bother reading it if there was no tomorrow since tomorrow is the quiz. Okay, so onto my blog entry.

I have just realized I really do not have anything substantial to write about. This being just an excuse for me not to fulfill my responsibilities, I do not think I actually need to write anything of substance here nor do I think you expected me to anyway.

Let's start with today. I believe the days are measured by the conversations you have, ideas you come up with, and people you encounter. Karen and I had a talk about how insecure girls in school make us feel. I actually thought I was the only one who felt this way. You see, back in high school I never actually felt this inferior. All the girls in college seem to be so skinny and gorgeous and I seem to be getting more unattractive as the days go by. I realized I felt inferior in every sense of the word- not just with looks, but with academics too. In class I feel like such a ditz because everyone seems to understand the lectures while I let my mind wander off. It's even worse because the professors seem to think that the more you recite the higher your grades will be, which I do not agree with at all. Some people just choose not to recite in class because that's just not how they learn. It is not in their personality. And it bothers me that teachers choose to grade us on this. I seem to go off-topic a lot. Then again, this blog is pointless so who cares, really?

I have been watching a ton of Make-up gurus on YouTube. I fail at putting make-up on. I have always loved Make-up ever since I was a kid. I used to experiment using my mom's limited collection (she used to be really simple back then. I think as I grew into a teenager, she became one as well. She wears heels now and buys make-up). I try to put on make-up, really, but my face was not made for it. Just when I think it looks great, my Asian eyes eat up all the make-up until there's nothing there anymore. I gave up for a while until I started watching these videos and it sort of gives me hope that with the perfect tools at my disposal I can finally look good with make-up on. So, I made a huge ass list of things people can buy me for Christmas. I'm guessing it's perfect since make-up doesn't cost that much and people always ask what I want so might as well just tell them. I won't post the whole list here. I'm hoping by New Year I'll have a make-up collection of my own!

So I have actually entered stage 7 of my Procrastination stage and it is not pretty. I just actually opened it and realized how small the print is and that it is 8 pages long. I'm sort of having a panic attack at the moment.

What's going to get me through this is the thought that I need a 2.8 to shift to AB Psych. That's a whole 'nother thought that needs a separate blog entry and I don't have time for that now.
I should go before I have a nervous breakdown.

We had no classes today because well I actually have no clue why, but I'm glad we don't. I spent all day watching Fushigi Yuugi, an anime I used to watch on TV when I was a kid. I also finally saw S02E02 of Misfits. I cried so hard. This is like the best show ever! It sucks so much that they only have 6 episode per season, I mean this show deserves more! E4 has got the best shows. I wouldn't recommend everyone to watch it, because it's kind of a love it or hate it thing. Aside from that, I also browsed a bunch of gossip sites and fashion blogs. I'm rounding up my picks for best dressed these past days (basically because I'm going insane from boredom). Here we go!


It's hard to believe this girl, Elle Fanning, is only 12. Here she is in an Azzaro dress looking every bit beautiful. I think the look is very festive and it's not just because she's next to a Christmas tree. The shoes are amazing! I need my own pair! The jewels on the shoes and dress, plus the silver headband give it a princess-y feel.



I always saw Eva Mendes on The RZ Project, but never paid attention to her style. After seeing this look on her I googled her past red carpet looks and I was shocked I never noticed them before. The Prada dress is doing all the work here. She has just a ring and black open toe mary-janes as accessories. Very simple. Hair simple and down. But somehow it all still works.



To me, Camilla Belle will always be Joe Jonas' ex-girlfriend and Taylor Swift's scorn enemy. This dress is making me think of her as someone who could be known for something other than her Hollywood relationships- known for her good fashion choices. The Carolina Herrera dress is stunning. I'm not too keen on the clutch she paired it with and she could have lost the bracelet on her right hand, but the dress makes up for everything! Well done, Camilla!



I'm sure January Jones drove the men mad with this salacious black number. I honestly did not recognize her at first, probably because it is so different from all the clothes she wears on Mad Men. I mistook her for a model (it was the hair that I usually saw on runways). This look is definitely in this week's top 3!



Carey Mulligan is officially on my style icons list. To me, if you are able to look absolutely stunning in a bob cut, then you're in. This Chanel dress she's wearing is tricky and will only look good on a few people and Carey does it justice! I am not a fan of the booties, but I think the clutch is spot on. This look is A+




I have always adored Kate Bosworth and her outfits are always there to inspire me. This specific one is gorgeous. The black gown with sheer details are a trend right now and here it is executed perfectly by Kate. The sheerness is subtle, but still there. I love how she styled it with silver dangling earrings and her hair swept back. She is stunning.



Everyone's always said Gwen Stefani has great style, but I never really saw it- until now. I always thought that the Harajuku Girls phase was tacky (even though I went through a phase when I was very much fascinated with eccentric Japanese fashion). So I figured she is unable to wear something sophisticated and classy. Wrong I was. Here she shows off that side with a LBD by Chanel. Everything here is great. I think she's better off without the tights, but either way it's a great look.



Last is Alexa Chung. Believe it or not, as much as I love them Brit It Girls, I was never obsessed with Alexa and her style. I thought she got away with her granny clothes and was called a style icon just because of her skinny model body. Sure she has those OMG moments where she totally shuts it down, but I find no consistency. Here in one of her to die for looks is a Proenza Schouler dress. Alexa is always working that baby doll dress and she looks good in them.

It has been a weird month. Usually the one thing that always gets me the most upset is not being allowed to go out and party. I've always hated being stuck at home with nothing to do while all my friends are out having a good time. I very much wanted to see friends, but the one thing that really really made me excited for night outs was the getting dolled up part.

It has always been the most exciting part of my day, dressing up- picking what outfit to wear, what shoes will match this shirt, what to do with my hair. I especially love it when it's a big occasion where I can wear a ton of make-up and sky high heels.

Recently, I've been on a slump. My friends have started calling me ditcher, because I would always not attend the parties. It's because I've been too lazy to dress up. Also, I have been feeling very unpretty. Anna Dello Russo said "When you don't feel to dress means that you are depressed. You need a FASHION SHOWER" I am not sure what she means by FASHION SHOWER but I think I need it.

I think this is more like an anti-social thing. I enjoy dressing up when I'm with family or alone, but when I know a lot of people will be there and they'll be looking at me and what I wear, I just really don't want to go.

I don't even know, it's 2am and I just missed out on another party tonight. Whatevs xx